Forgive me but let's try this again....

I don't have a computer, that is my excuse. I can steal very few moments at work to read a blog but i have no time to write one. You see it takes me a long time to write anything. It has always been this way for me. In school I would be doing great until I had to write a paper. I'd freeze, so in a way this blog is like occupational therepy. Which given all the owther therapy I have had or am having helps to round things out...lol. Anyway I have been dieting which for many is a way of life, not for me i enjoy food too much to limit my self all the time. So I have decided to try this another way. I call it a LIVE IT! when hear or see the word diet I think of DIEt and that is no way to live. I will try to use this blog or maybe start a new one and it will be my live it journal. I would like to share my wins and losses and what is working and what is not. So far since January I have lost 32lbs. and my goal is to lose 140 more over the next 2 years. I feel this goal is very reachable but if it proves to be too lofty I will adjust. I am not trying to prove anything to anyone I just want to be a healthier me.

The power of the blog...

I became addicted to reading blogs when I found out about my friend's blog. We barely knew about each others lives after high school.  So I found it very fun to read her blog about her everyday life. Honestly I had forgotten how funny she is and the adventures of her 4 kids makes so happy.

  Well Farmwife was my first but I did not stop there.  I went on to find blogs about large families (because I am obsessed with the Duggars), and the links to other blogs are endless. I have been reading about pre-mature babies and the many issues they have (luckily for me I have no first hand knowledge). 

 But, most recently I stumbled onto a blog about a child with EB. First of all this disease is haneous, horrid and just plain mean.  EB is a disease that when someone has it their skin will not adhere to their body it has to do with collegen I will try to attach a link.

 Anyway, on to the power of the blog I was reading this blog from a father whose daughter has this disease.  His words and love are just amazing.  I was on my break at work and checking blogs and found out that after about a year life and 100 days after a bone marrow transplant, Bella lost her life.  I was devastated.  I cried and cried and could not stop.  Bad news because I was still at my desk at work. 

 My boss asked me what was wrong and I told her one the children I had been following had died.  She was suprised. I think because I was so invested in the lives of these people I had never met and probably will never meet. Her advise to me was to get it together. Ok I said and I tried and I did for the most part. But I was left with the feeling of awe at this new media I have come across. How is that we can be so invested in other's lives and have never known them?

My First Blog.....

For my inaugural blog post I should have a great topic but I don't. I have always been of the mindset to just kinda get things over with, especially if I am nervous or have never done it before.  So here I am getting it over with first blog on the books now what.....

I am not sure exactly what I want this blog to be about, hence the name.  I am single, a mom, reformed wild child, reader, chef wannabe, liberal, christian and learning about myself everyday.  So here we go....